Some updates...

Been sometime I came here... Yeah just being lazy to update. Been thinking alot lately... Abt wat I want in life, be it at work or relationship...
Thinking of leaving the company, but Im still there... Havent been looking out 4 new jobs... Looking 4 some1 to love n Im always in the worng direction. I was never conetented wif wat I had... n Im always searching getting myself tired wif life.
This song is really meaningful by Hoobastank - "If I Were You"
[Verse 1:]
You seem to find the dark,
when everything is bright
You look for all that's wrong,
instead of all that's right
Does it feel good to you?
To rain on my parade
You never say a word,
unless it's to complain...
It's driving me insane

[Refrain:]
If I Were You,
holding the world right in my hands.
The first thing I'd do,
is thank the stars for all that I *have*...
If I Were You

[Verse 2:]
Look what's around you now,
more than you ever dreamed
Have you forgotten
just how hard it used to be?
So what's it going to take?
For you to realize
That it all could go away,
in one blink of an eye...
It happens all the time

[Refrain:]
If I Were You,
holding the world right in my hands.
The first thing I'd do,
is thanks the stars above,
tell the *ones* I love...
That I do

[Bridge:]
Yeah IF I WERE YOU,
Whoa, yeah IF I WERE YOU
IF I WERE YOU, whoaaaa
IF I WERE YOU

[Verse 3:]
So what's it going to take?
For you to realize
It all could go away,
in one blink of an eye...
it happens all the time!

[Chorus]
If I Were You,
holding the world right in my hands.
The first thing I'd do,
is thank the stars above,
FOR the *ones* I love...
Take a breath and enjoy the view
Live the life that I wanted to
If I Were You...
If I Were You...
If I Were You!

This is how Im feeling.

Trouble in sleeping again.....

Insomnia is back to hunt me again. I'll wake up at 4 am in the morning for no particular reason when the alarm wld sound off at 6am which is 2hrs earlier. N I'll be wide awake just lying in bed hopping to get back to sleep usually wif no success. I'll be so tired n restless in the day esp in the mid week I'll be like a walking zombie. This will happen whenever I sleep b4 12am. But after a long day at work I just wanna knock out during some days hack care abt wat time itis. Wat they always say ur mentally tired but not ur mind. It just dun shut dats when we get insomnia. Or is it I dun exercise enough??? hahah!!
The doctor had prescribe some pills for me which is supposed to help me relax. It worked I slept b4 12am, woke up at 6am instead of 4am. But I cant rely too much on it. Call me a light sleeper. I can wake up at the slightest noise anything can make. Once Im awake it'll be hard to get me back to sleep again. If I dun get enough sleep
I'll get grumpy in the day.
My family members are the ones Im always screaming at when Im grumpy. Well, they are the nite owls. Mum will come home late if she's working late shift. Father will always nag nag at brother. Brother likes to scream n shout singing!! MAN!! Y CAN'T THEY SPEAK SOFTLY!!! IRRITATING HELL!! When Im trying to sleep nobody's home.... so peaceful. Once someone's home.... HELL BREAKS LOOSE!!! N I'll start to scream 2 n slam my room door.
No wonder one of my fren keeps yearning to move out n whishing for a place of her own. Well, she got her wish. Me? Do I wish for dat?? Maybe.. But Im sure I'll miss all dat screaming when nobody's ard. N I cant sleep well in other bed other than my own...

Im enjoying the attention hahaha!!

I've always been very lazy to doll myself up, like applying make up n dressing up. Usually Im always in my 3/4 pants n no make up n off I go! Well which gal in the world who dunwanna look pretty??? I love colours n the glamour but just too plain lazy. I do apply make up occasionally but not dat often n since dat beautician told me the clog pores on my face is terrible I stopped!!
Well.... The results of being LAZY, I did not really take care of my used to be flawless skin either!!
Somebody: You haf such great skin.... Y never take care!!
Me: Lazy....
Somebody: You got nice features... Y dun u enhance it???
Me: Ar... Lazy.
Somebody: Than how u wanna attract guys like dat???
Me: Erm. Being myself?? (me thinking>>wif my smile of cos!!haahah)
If been hearing all these remarks over n over again sick n tired. I remembered I made this change of image thingy as one of my 2006 New yr resolution!! Its May now.... wah!!! 5months!! See now slow n lazy I can get....

Well, I strongly believe in if the guy is really sincere in knowing any gal, he'll not mind how the gal looks like. But in reality, its always the looks dat comes 1st than followed by the personality. A pretty person n an ugly person walking pass, definitely all eyes goes to the pretty person 1st. Dats human reaction.
1st impression makes dat difference....

Finally found the right skincare product which had clear up my clog pores a lot now. Ive also found the suitable compact powder which I like and some help advises frm my experts friends who know a lot more abt cosmetics than I do.
Ive invested so much on those products n clothes, y do I keep keeping all inside my cupboard???!! Damn!! I muz stop dat bad habit!!
It really does makes a difference now....
Somebody: See! U look brighter now.
Somebody: Wow, U look nice... n dat smile...
Thank 4 the compliments ppl. I ENJOY the attention!! hahah!!! Im a LEO!!! Well Im considered lucky too... Im not born ugly...

I realized something..... I've crawled outta depression. Was dat really depression I was in??? No, its fustration as diagnosed by my doctor.. hehe!!